A Life Transforming Story

THE CHURCH MONSTER

I am a young lady who has decided to share a very vital experience to the world through this platform.

15  years ago I happened to had walked into my SS3 science class during break to get a book from my school bag just to find out that, a mini secondary school fellowship was having her weekly meeting there. I wasn’t a part of the fellowship so I didn’t know what day in particular they met or, what class they use but that day,  it held in my class.
I got there, picked up my book and was taking my leave when one of my friends who was a member of the fellowship tapped me to stay and sit with them for just that day. I agreed reluctantly and I that was how the journey began.
As a teenager who was preparing for WAEC, NECO and JAMB and was opportune to hear a few testimonies of ex students who were part of this fellowship and how they excelled effortlessly I decided to join them. Soon after, what was supposed  to be a route of escape from failing my exams became a serious business as I got genuinely converted. I passed my exams with distinctions and became one of the frontiers of this fellowship at the tertiary institution version.
I was zealous, preaching, and converting people until I eventually got to an environment where that fellowship had not yet been established so I delved into a church. The message preached there was quite different from that of the fellowship. It was focused only on prosperity and good living. Well, years passed by and I soon got comfortable and blended into the system until I stumbled over something (the church monster) that shook me and threw me far of balance ….. But before I talk about this monster, I’d like to share some of my experiences a bit more.

In that church we were told that we were saved just to enjoy and it doesn’t really matter what we do. There was a lot of lawlessness but on every church meeting day we were told and always reminded that “it doesn’t matter” and so we could do what we want to do. Well, we were serious with this doctrine of “FREEDOM” even as we were experiencing success on our endeavors through constant prayers on us from our pastor.

 
Despite all the freedom, testimonies, compulsory seedings, etc that we were experiencing in that church there was this dissatisfaction within me. I really wanted intimacy and getting to know this God other than just succeeding in my business.
One Tuesday morning on my way to work I was invited by someone at the filling station to come for her church program to find the real meaning of church and understand the path of Christianity in truth. It was as if the person had known of my inner dissatisfaction. I was so happy so I promised him that I would definitely attend.
The program was fixed for the weekend of that same week: Friday, Saturday, Sunday.
I was so eager to know the truth. I knew within me that what my church offered is not all that there is to serving God.
At the program I heard something entirely different. It looked so much as the truth but it later threw me into utter confusion. We were told a lot of stories about hell fire and alot of things to do and not to do so we could avoid going there. As a lady I had to stop using a lot of things so that I would be holy. Other general things that didn’t  pertain to only females  were also itemized.
At first I jumped at it all because I wanted relationship with God over benefits. I joined them and realized that it wasn’t just the program, that was what the church believed and it was expected for all members to adhere to them (rules of holiness) so that their worship would be acceptable. After about 3 years with them I suddenly stopped going to church because…. …all I saw was self deceit. Many looked holy from the outward but with very bad and dubious characters. They were very good at gossiping and condemning one another yet they felt they were the only ones doing the right thing and going to heaven and that everyone else is going to hell.
I wanted to return to my former church but they see themselves as the best even as they live their lives anyhow, idolizing the pastor.
So I stopped going to church entirely until I met Mariam, my secondary school friend.
She was newly wed and had recently moved to  join her husband. We met at a boutique and from there we started talking. We hung out together some days and other days visited each other. Our friendship was still rekindling when I observed something strange about her. She looked lit and seemed very different and unique. I couldn’t explain what I could see neither could I figure out what it was. In one word she was stresslessly perfect. Then one day, I popped it up during one of our discussions. I told her I wanted to be like her and that she should show me how to go about it.
That was when she told me that she observed that I no longer go to church and would want to know why. So I narrated everything to her and that was the first time I heard the word “The Church Monster” for the first time.
Then she went ahead to explain…….

As I listened to her I could feel the dissatisfaction within me fading out gradually. I just knew I had found what I had been looking for and out of curiosity I asked her what the church monster was and she said that the church monster is RELIGION. She said that it’s masquerading itself in the church going about frightening people. Telling them lots of things to do and not to do. Telling them to try and be holy and if you cannot then God is angry with you. Then she added that most atimes we fall for this monster because there’s an outward show of what looks like holiness before our eyes but often after a while we then begin to question ourselves If it’s ever worth it.

 
 

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